Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Hi guys, I'm so sorry I haven't posted...

It's been almost a month since the ex boyfriend and I broke up. I'm getting by. I'm so much better than I was before though, but I do still have occasional sadness attacks that come from out of nowhere. The ex's best friend also broke up with his girlfriend so he could be single so his girlfriend and I have become quite close in the span of about a month. I'm sorry she has to go through the same thing cuz she's an amazing person and cuz it's miserable, but it's really nice to have someone who knows exactly what I'm going through. It's just hard cuz now we're stuck with dealing with Valentine's day.

My best friend is also in the hospital. She was admitted Sunday night out of the blue. I don't know if I should get into it because I want to protect her privacy, but she's doing okay today...

I've also quit school for this semester. I took the semester off. There's just so much going on and I can't focus on school right now. Sometimes all I want to do is stay home and do absolutely nothing. Oddly, I also find comfort in driving down the freeway going nowhere on a sunny day with the sun shining on my face.

15 comments:

Digital Angel said...

I've been wondering if you are doing okay.
I miss seeing your happy smiley pictures. Yeah, school can be tough when you go through so much stuff, I understand.
*hugs*
:)

Jules said...

Hey Lily. The last thing I want to say to you is I'm sorry that you are going through a tough time right now...cause I know if I was in your shoes I wouldn't want to hear that. So I'm just going to tell you that in time, it does get better. You are a beautiful person and you are entitled to be sad, cry, or take a break when you want to but...just in case you need an ear to listen..I'm here for you. Take care.

Askmewhats said...

i hope your bestie is ok...do take care..thanks for the update..! Missed you!

fuzkittie said...

Aww hope you're ok! We miss you!

Vanessa M. said...

i sent you a message on twitter!
glad your okay..that last part sounds nice tho.. :)
well i hope your bff is okay :/
but glad you got a friend...
were here for you babe!

Jenn said...

I'm sorry this had to happen to you. Sometimes it feels good to cry and just let it all out. Stay strong and know that you can get through this.

Mrs.Zeus said...

My... thats gotta be tough.
I hope your bestfriend gets better soon, thanks for updating and letting us know that your doing okay.
Let me know when you need a friend to hang out, I can always drive to SF.

Ahleessa said...

I'm glad you're slowly getting better! It takes time and you're doing it at your phase. You're very lucky to deal with this with a friend. Some people have nobody around when something bad happens.

FuN and MakeUp said...

i know u havent posted in a long while! i hope ur friend gets better..
u quitted skoo? talk about skoo.. i gotta register soon! well i hope things will get better.. we're all here for yOU!!!! xoxo<333333

abby =) said...

i hope yoou feel better. im glad to hear that youre ding better though hope everything ends up falling into place take care miss

P-ham said...

i'm glad to see u have found a friend you can relate to and share with. i kno it really helps:)

KiLLaCaM said...

I'm sorry that you are going through this right now. Just know that there is someone out there who I waiting to love you. You are local! I work in SF! hope you feel better..

sanniet said...

Hello Lily, I was just randomly going through blogs that had to deal with beauty and such and I came across yours and I just started reading. I really hope things turn out to be okay for you, well actually everything WILL be okay! I don't know you too well but I know you're a tough girl with a good heart. I hope by taking this break from school you'll feel better and take care of the things that needs to be taken care of.

OHh and also! I live in the bay area too! and...I love lingerie also hehe... >_<

Vanessa said...

I hope things get better, just stay strong, and if it's meant to be it WILL be. Keep smiling. :)

Grayburn said...

Absolutely girl,if you need to take time off and whatever makes you feel happier and centered.

Take care and I hope everything will be better soon with you, your friend and the girl who just broke up with her bf.

xo Grayburn